A Good Day

I have to say since the Girls moved in with Tom and I there have been good days and bad days.... Jasmine has ADHD and learning difficulties so we spent the first 6 months getting her to doctors, with a diagnosis and on the right medications so she could actually sit down and learn and behave.  Arianna is angry to say the least.  Who can blame her with everything she has been through?  Did I mention I was pregnant the first 9 months they lived with me with severe heartburn and no sleep... and then I had a newborn and no sleep! 

So in the beginning I think we had a lot of bad days..... Days when I didn't think I could do it anymore.  Days when I would just put my head down and cry.  What kept me going besides my love for them and their two cute shining personalities that I knew were there was thoughts of my Aunt and Uncle.... I spent a lot of time growing up with Maryann and Kevin.  Maryann was the cool aunt that I always loved to hang out with.  As I got older she became my best friend.  I spent a lot of time with them so it was a gift I could give the Girls.  Stories of their parents......I could give them the life their parents wanted them to have.

Anyway.... I digress.... Back to today.... Today was a good day.  I have to say we have been having more and more of those lately..... The new house is part of that.  We finally have room to spread out and aren't all crammed on top of one another..... But it still amazes me how sometimes you just have a good day out of no where.... They had the day off because of snow.... and we just never seemed to get them all to daycare.... They helped with Nathaniel, they cleaned the play room, we went to Walmart, we went and bought ice skates.... Ordinary things that all add up to just a smile and not tears.....We all kissed good night and said I love you and there were no tears or yelling..... Just promise of another good day tomorrow.  Of course I never know with the two of them.   I just know that somehow they are growing and changing and something has clicked where things are just working.......  I look at old pictures of them now and I think... wow they are really growing up and turning into young ladies...

As a full time working mom I have to admit I have a lot of days I feel guilty... Days I can't make school parties or performances because of meetings or commitments.... Last week though Arianna had to draw picture of her hero for her Martin Luther King Performance.  I couldn't make it because of work.  She drew a picture of Tom and I and said that we are her heros..... I hold that in my head when she is rolling her eyes at me..... Brings tears to my eyes.... I know they appreciate Tom and I but there is nothing like a hand drawn picture of it....

Sorry this is a bit all over the place...... I blame it on the wine..... ;)  Then I can blame my friend Sarah who bought all of the wine with me..... and my friend Christie who also has two Girls the same age.... who gave me the most sage advice ever "The children are stronger willed than us.... that is why we have alcohol." ;)